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 I feel like giving up, I don't want to, but I really do : (

I try and be a good person and be there for the ones i love and care about. But somehow I always end up being the bad guy. I would give the shirt off my back for someone I care about, I guess i try too hard? I really don't know what is going on, it's like if I were to do to my friends and others the way they do unto me they would totally write me off. When I am hurt or upset it's automatically my fault.....Maybe it is my fault? Maybe I need to close myself off from people for a good while. This week has been especially hard on me emotionally. Monday I found out I have to give myself a B-12 shot for the rest of my life, Tuesday I found out my adopted grandmother cant visit ( whom I am very close with ) Wednesday I had to tell my psychiatrist i couldn't see her anymore, Thursday I had a really bad experience from my meds and attempted scuicide and today I found out I most likely wont be able to return to school this year. Not to mention spent the early hours of the morning in a hospital and at a new psychiatrist.  The bad week is no excuse for some of my behavior, however I don't think people care about me like I care about them.....

I think I am going to give up on people all together. EP, I think I might take  an internet vacation, away from the internet I mean for a week or two. I haven't decided just yet.

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