It's 4th of July | misslucero's Blog

 And it is my favorite. But this year it isn't going to be fun, or happy. Keith is in Korea fighting for our freedom while i'm stuck here doing nothing. I'm alone, I am unemployed and I don't have the money to continue college. Tuesday I have a meeting with my recruiter for the Coast Guard. I am having to make the hardest decision of my life right now. Do I join or stay? I have wanted to be in the Coast Guard for a really long time now. It is something I feel like I need to do in order to be the person I should be. However, I know if I do join Keith and I will probably fall apart. he is in the army so naturally he will be at a fort or AB and I will be on a ship or harbour. I know he's the person I want to spend the rest of my life with....I just don't know what to do. Do I join because it's what I have wanted? And sacrifice being with Keith??? Or do I give up the Coast Guard and wait for him? I can't stand the thought of losing him and that is why I don't know if I can join....I can't bare the thought of being away from Keith, it's already hard enough with him being in Korea....someone shoot me please